This is what happens when you hit the human emotional boiling point (in German language)
Life ain’t easy at times. Yes, i just got this recalled again.
The events and stories that i perceived within the last days were enough to make one hit an emotional boiling point. And by emotional boiling point, i do not necessarily mean it to be only sadness, only anger or anything like it. For me, this boiling point becomes so odd as it puts all emotions you can feel together in one day.
I deeply felt sympathy as one Indonesian politician passed away just a day ago, knowing that he was one of the people who many people seemed to have looked up to our held on to. Also to the family, that was just starting. I deeply felt sorry for them. Who would know when one’s time would come. Theories over theories might have been talked about on the media, but about death or the most unbelievable chance of life, nobody can really predict. A question had been posed by Twitter friends.. “Will I be ready if God were to take me today?”
… i believe, we all would need to think about it quite a while to find an answer to this and maybe after a time still be speechless for answering it. I personally felt quite hit by that line, as i wasn’t sure for that myself. Sure, if you are not of a certain age, you wouldn’t achieve as much and be able to prepare as much so that what you started can be taken up by others or commemorated in a valuable way, or make others more ready in seeing the possibilities that the certain life-end may come their way. The actual question is: “Was life well -spent until now?”
There are times you are put on hold for moving towards a direction because you simply have to overgo a certain process first before you take the next step ahead. Patience is here the demand, as well as diligence and a constant consequent awareness of why we stay put for this moment – in order to achieve the next step. I believe I’m in such a condition at this moment. I believe that there are some transitory things that I need to learn, understand and undergo first, before i start something greater, because i believe, what i learn now, can only help me to become a solid rock once I take a step ahead. I believe this is the best way of making sure you are not naive; your burdens do not overtake your capacities. For me this all takes a great amount of patience. And yes, of course, ;) not only for me.
I am so eager to do something new now. Yet i know it’s just not the time yet. The impatience is just showing first signs of surfacing… just like a water kettle about to boil and sound.. i’m just afraid that if i got hooked up with the routine, i forgot to take the opportunities for the next thing towards the goal(s).
Opportunities… yes, that is also a word became one of the “words of the weekend”. Today’s life is very opportunistic oriented because the chance for equal opportunity for everyone, may it be on the job market, on the academic ladder, in career and life becomes bigger. Opportunities however should not blind us to stick to profound principles. I felt disappointment hearing that a friend didn’t seem to be able to recognize that values sometimes are still to be upheld, rather than opportunities. But it’s a choice for everyone, either you become ice-cold with your decision, respecting nothing else around you, or you do it professionally, choosing to meet a path that may suit best for resolution of matters, or you just sit still. The latter of course, could only do harm to yourself. There is where you need to have the courage to stay professional. Taking opportunities yes. But i believe, as adult one should have become smart enough to recognize, how unwise one can be if we run away from a responsibility.
Uncertainty. Life is uncertain, and that makes one feel sadness, anger or disappointment, as parts of hope begin to shade. You will not know what life holds for you, yet you are the one in charge of it. Best thing is that you plan ahead wisely, act as needed, but try the best in everytime you work towards something. Whatever is the outcome of your work is not always apparent, yet, if it was a failure, it was still valuable to have learned the lesson of what you should avoid or do better the next time you try. Uncertainty definitely brings along that you have to wait to receive an answer, for an application process, for a decision, for a further step in your daily work. If nothing is defined, i guess it is still best to turn to one’s self again and start to build a inner point of certainty deriving from…
Faith. This again, is another very abstract word with lots of beautiful meanings that can be laid out. Faith is one great gift that was given to us by God. When we feel small, when we feel things start to crumble, when we are in the dark, alone, or when we sit in front of a massive stack of paper, documents to work on, then it is us and our incredible faith that can lift us up and make us sit or stand up straight again. When in doubt, call God. 
You will receive the faith that is a blessing to face your day. No matter how ugly, plundering, disgusting, disgraceful, crushing your day might be, you will still see the light at the end of the road leading hmm.. let’s say towards the gates of a City of Lights, opening up more chances for you to make your life worthwhile and wholesome again.
On boiling point, sit still, give it a breather, and keep the faith
