Catching up.

After i had a look at what i had been writing, i was both disappointed, because i hadn’t been posting anything for a long time and on the other side a bit surprised/proud of myself to see some postings that i wouldn’t have remembered that i could convey messages in such a language. As another point, i feel that the writings of mine had to be polished again.. I feel kinda rusty now. That’s a shame. I guess, by the time one is in the process of writing.. like in the last two years, thesis-writing, reading, inquiring, introspecting, reflecting, analysing, interpreting, revising, interviewing, re-writing, speed-reading, speed-writing and a burnout at the end which made me work with more good results… (oops, ok i cut it). So what i meant was, when one is in the process of writing anyway, one is definitely more productive to create some additional articles that can be posted i.e. in a blog like mine.

It seems that if you are in the process of writing, the world is full of things to wonder and contemplate about, every detail worth to be analysed from one’s own point of view. (i intentionally do not refer to phenomena! i am somehow in the idea that there must be some other word than that! :p )  Besides that, i figure, for all of that you really need the time to do so.

Time, i would say is definitely something that i didn’t much appreciate within the last years i had spent out of the academic path. Sad but real, what i had to deal with is how to get several things done by a similar time. I seem to have indeliberately chosen the path of letting every matter run and get stuck in my head. Now, the difficulties then had been to get them out again. There is however only one way.. If the task is done. But once the task is done, there should be a lesson learnt out of it, shouldn’t there be? I don’t think i really can still pull the red thread out of it once i’m done with an assignment. Kind of sad, but i guess it’s again about reorganizing everything again. Shortened, at the moment i have to admit that it’s most like a mess.

And this is what i meant by postings that ran down in quality.. i think one has to have time to reflect about certain issues in order to really dwell in it and give birth to another worth readable piece of writing. A quest of exchanging experience, knowledge or feelings that can also be a use or least an entertainment to everybody. For actually i hope that educating others would be my primary objective. I reviewed my posting on the Gaza conflict some months ago, and i had a look at the last few i posted. Ckckck.. i gotta get to the standard of my Gaza conflict posting again, if not better. It’s a MUST!

At this stage of life i shall say, there is a lot that is still waiting for me and still opening up. Some opportunities for me are getting interesting. I believe, at this point, i have to contemplate on what has been done and what i still have to do and knowing on how to do it. There is a real need to clean up all mess in life and to sort it into the system again that worked to perfectly for my life. In order, in balance – for all mind/body/soul. What happened that i can’t keep the balance up again, I wonder…?

I’ve been dreaming, yes.. i have.. And thus the result had been my favourite things posting. Yes i believe i do long to see all of that again soon But for another thing, i could stop dreaming and (partly) start living it. I found a comfort within the past months, and i am in my highest hopes that in the months ahead i will be able to explore that hope even more. I am really grateful for being blessed with this, for something that I did not expect until it happened, and for what i had been fighting much as i could in order to make it real. I wish i could share, but i will do later.. when the time is right.

i hope i will be posting more.. as per the next 2 weeks, there is definitely going to be some Milestone to come… I think i start posting a 25 things-series soon

Til then, stay tuned, stay fresh and happy, peeps!

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