my mellow little heart + socialising at the latest stage

Seems that I get most effective in writing either if I was intellectually critical or challenged or when I become mellow.

My little mellow heart. A feature I inherited from my rather undaring and yet curious-within-boundaries teenage soul. Why is it that if one gets older, one has to leave or try to ignore it? One reason is I guess that you find less and less acceptance from other people that want to learn about what you go through. The older we get, the more our capacity to listen to others problems vanished and gets replaced by the amount of own sources of mellowness in their lives. I don’t deny that this happens to me too. But somehow, outlets still need to be there at times. And as I learn, even pouring out becomes opportunistic. As the time and world moves on you find yourself seeking for peace and enlightment with different people at different times. Now, it could be anyone you have the right moment to talk with. Isn’t that interesting? It farthers from the learned concept of having the same best friends that you always had in school n stuff. But that’s somehow signalising the socialising model of the age. Relations are, pretty much transitory and on the other side without much burden on both sides. You may lose contact, but after ages you meet again, you may resume the relation at a similar intensity as if nothing happened. What further defines it is the intention and interest of why and how you maintain the relation.

I am curious of how it develops in the upcoming 10-20 years… Keep staying as liquid as water, adjusting yourself to flow through whatever shape..

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